quick post

i wont edit this entry. so my apology., i may have a zillion of errors my mind wants to speak up. my head is asking me to write anything. im scared. im confused. im trying not to lose sight of things.. im scared im just scared. scared

Repressed

I'm constantly missing the way we talk before. How happy we are, our chuckles know no ends, our stories that can fill a pool and dreams that can reach the farthest galaxy. What happened to us? Why did we end up like this. Like this.. like strangers.. Natural.... to neutral... I admit, I may have …

Wailing

did you ever felt the sadness i have when we first met? I'm in deep pain. A pain who rented my body but decided to live here for good. she sees my soul as a comfort place where she can lay her feelings. she spills every emotions and feelings inside my body, like a poison. …

Hindi lahat ng nagutulog, nagpapahinga

this thought randomly came to my mind. Lately, this one week to be specific, i slept a lot (like a lot hahaha) but i did not remember anything. I knew with myself i had dreams but nothing came in mind. Nothing stayed. Nothing to remember. Nothing to assess. Nothing to be curious about. it leaves …

ragged

Lately. things are getting heavier. Heavier in a way that many people are getting hurt, shocked, surprised but mosty of all, left hanging. Time is getting slower. it's like there's no end to these. Why do we need to go through these days. these moments.. these pain. My heart is slowly beating. It's too heavy …

Change is inevitable

I'm afraid, I might not do well. I'm not scared of the subject, I'm afraid that I may not able to give the best things to them. One thing I discovered tonight: My allergy appears when my anxiety begin to manifest. T.T

futile

waaah.. I'm screaming silently under the ceiling of my room. Too loud that my ears cannot handle it anymore. My brain wants to shut down ..but she just can't. I've been wanting to write another worthless post. I have titles in my head "Bakit walang Rewind, Pause, at Fast Forward" "Unseen Feelings" "Paano mag-Move-On in …

Relax

I believe that God can make miracles. Expect it, and it will surely happen in His time. i may not know the next chapter or season of my life, I'm still trusting His plans. though sometimes I'm asking.. "When will my life begin..?" Familiar? Yeah, it's a song sung by Rapunzel in her movie Tangled. …

Ser Mong Day

"Natapos ang kainan uuwi ako mamayang masaya. Bago matapos nasabi ko sa kanila na kahit matapos na ang TCP, na kahit ano ang mangyari sa hinaharap, lagi niyo tandaan bakit kayo nagsimula, bakit kayo nageduc units, bakit kayo magtuturo ❤ " -- Ser Mong

Chapter 11, Page 29, 2013 Edition.

How I miss my old self. She's never a cynical but a ball of sunshine. She was never been swallowed by fear, but she had a sword of confidence and competence. I miss you.